I came out last year as a transgender man. I haven't felt better about myself in my entire life. I found me. Although being able to come out is saving my life, I found there to be a dark shadow hanging over me. I have worked hard on my trauma recovery for 3 years and I was in a solid place of healing, when I started coming out to family my trauma responses resurfaced. I was SA by my brother for over 5 years. I think about the what ifs a lot. If this didn't happen would I have found myself sooner? Would I have become an addict? And how could I be a man when I grew up hating them? I hate that something so amazing feels tied to these bad memories. I just want to be able to enjoy each and every moment of the journey I am on. I think I deserve to be present for every step I take. - Human
