I take so many psychiatric medications, its overwhelming. Its so much work to make sure I always have them refilled and organized and according to my insurance. Im a nurse and during the pandemic a lot of nurses started "travel nursing" because it was paying super high. Everyone asked why I didn't but I didn't know how to explain I couldn't handle not having consistent health insurance. Im ashamed and frustrated the hold that these medications have over my life and at the same time I know they help me live. And im lucky because they honestly dont sedate me, they actually help me live inside my body and love and laugh and cry. I dont ever talk about them and yet they are such a large part of my life. - Human
