I'm 24 and have the hardest time wanting to be in a relationship due to past abuse. I would love to have a partner and family, but getting there seems impossible. Unfortunately, because of a health condition that could cause fertility issues I was told not to wait too long before trying to have kids. It has created this mental clock of when I need to meet someone in order to be engaged, married, and ready for kids by a certain age. I am stuck between being petrified of being with someone would could cause me more hurt and being petrified that will run out of time. I usually always end these types of statements with a "on the bright side" or an "at least..." but there is no minimizing it today. Nothing feels light or small about it today. - Human, 24 y/o
